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Holding It Together: Addiction, Achievement, and the Fear of Falling Apart
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ISBN13: 9798250282345
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Mar 1 2026
Pages: 244
Weight: 0.57
Height: 0.51 Width: 5.25 Depth: 8.00
Language: English
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Mar 1 2026
Pages: 244
Weight: 0.57
Height: 0.51 Width: 5.25 Depth: 8.00
Language: English
Holding It Together - Addiction, Achievement, and the Fear of Falling Apart
By Adam Allard You're successful. Responsible. Reliable.
From the outside, everything looks fine. But behind closed doors, alcohol, pills, cannabis, or stimulants have quietly become part of how you cope, celebrate, sleep, or survive stress. You haven't lost your job.
By Adam Allard You're successful. Responsible. Reliable.
From the outside, everything looks fine. But behind closed doors, alcohol, pills, cannabis, or stimulants have quietly become part of how you cope, celebrate, sleep, or survive stress. You haven't lost your job.
You haven't hit rock bottom.
You're still functioning. So why does it feel like you're holding everything together by a thread? Holding It Together is a practical, story-driven guide for high-functioning men and women who are privately struggling with substance use while maintaining careers, families, and reputations. This is not a memoir.
It's not clinical.
And it's not written for people who have already fallen apart. It's written for people who haven't. Through realistic fictional stories of professionals, entrepreneurs, parents, and leaders, this book explores:
Each chapter includes:
This book speaks directly to people who:
If you've ever thought, I'm not that bad, while quietly wondering if you are... this book is for you. Recovery does not require collapse.
You don't have to lose everything to change.
You don't have to hit bottom to start climbing. You just have to stop pretending you're fine.
You're still functioning. So why does it feel like you're holding everything together by a thread? Holding It Together is a practical, story-driven guide for high-functioning men and women who are privately struggling with substance use while maintaining careers, families, and reputations. This is not a memoir.
It's not clinical.
And it's not written for people who have already fallen apart. It's written for people who haven't. Through realistic fictional stories of professionals, entrepreneurs, parents, and leaders, this book explores:
- High-functioning alcohol use disorder
- Prescription pill misuse and stimulant dependence
- Cannabis and emotional numbness
- Failed moderation attempts
- Irritability during withdrawal
- The illusion of control
- Secret planning and hidden drinking
- Asking for help without losing status
- The first 72 hours sober
- The first 30 days
- Unexpected triggers months later
- How to build a life you don't need to escape from
Each chapter includes:
- A relatable story
- A breakdown of what's really happening
- Clear steps to cut back or get clean and sober
- Daily exercises to prevent relapse and build real stability
This book speaks directly to people who:
- Are drinking every night but still succeeding
- Are using Adderall, Xanax, or painkillers to stay sharp or calm
- Feel emotionally numb on cannabis
- Keep promising moderation but can't stick to it
- Are terrified of losing status if they admit they need help
If you've ever thought, I'm not that bad, while quietly wondering if you are... this book is for you. Recovery does not require collapse.
You don't have to lose everything to change.
You don't have to hit bottom to start climbing. You just have to stop pretending you're fine.
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