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Chaos Between My Ears: A Front-Row Seat to an Addict's Mind
Paperback
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Jun 29 2026
Pages: 158
Weight: 0.48
Height: 0.34 Width: 6.00 Depth: 9.00
Language: English
What if addiction isn't the real enemy?
What if the real battle happens in the space between your ears?
Chaos Between My Ears isn't a book about drugs.
It's a book about the thoughts that come before them.
The lies that sound like logic.
The excuses that feel like truth.
The endless internal arguments that nobody else can hear.
Bruce Haataja takes readers inside the mind of addiction-not to glorify it, but to expose it. With raw honesty, he explores the mental battlefield of obsession, self-deception, shame, fear, and the desperate search for silence.
This isn't a step-by-step recovery guide.
It's a front-row seat to the conversations that happen before every bad decision, every broken promise, and every attempt to escape.
Whether you've struggled with addiction yourself, love someone who has, or simply understand what it's feels like to fight your own mind, this book offers an unfiltered look at the war that happens long before anyone else sees the damage.
Inside you'll discover:
- Why addiction begins in the mind long before it reaches the body
- The internal committee that argues for and against every decision
- How rationalization slowly becomes self-deception
- Why the promise of silence can become more addictive than the substance itself
- What recovery really feels like after the drugs are gone
Raw. Honest. Unapologetic.
Because the hardest battle was never the drugs.
It was always the chaos between my ears.
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