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What I Want
Paperback
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Oct 30 2025
Pages: 384
Weight: 1.13
Height: 0.85 Width: 6.00 Depth: 9.00
Language: English
What do you truly want-beneath the noise, beneath the performance, beneath the person you became to survive?
What I Want by Zachary R. Holderle is a meditation on truth, longing, and the quiet ache that lives beneath all ambition. It is not a self-help book, nor a manifesto-it is a mirror, written in language that feels both intimate and eternal. Each line invites you to listen more deeply to yourself, to remember what it feels like to want without apology, and to discover the subtle difference between desire and calling.
Holderle writes with a rare blend of honesty and grace, moving between reflection, poetry, and prose with an ease that feels like breath itself. The book holds space for the parts of us that have been silenced by expectation-the child who once knew what joy meant, the dreamer who stopped believing it was possible, the adult who learned to want less so life would hurt less.
What I Want asks:
What if the things you've been taught to want were never yours?
What if the truest form of wanting is actually remembering?
What if fulfillment is not something to chase, but something to return to?
For readers of Mary Oliver, David Whyte, and Rainer Maria Rilke, this book will feel like a quiet conversation with your own soul. It's meant to be read slowly, returned to often, and kept close.
You don't have to know what you want.
You only have to care enough to ask again-honestly, and without fear.
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