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To Love At All - Even Now, Even Here: A Manifesto for the Impossible Way of Jesus in a World That Would Rather Not
Paperback
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Feb 1 2026
Pages: 312
Weight: 0.80
Height: 0.70 Width: 5.50 Depth: 8.50
Language: English
We live in a world drowning in connection, yet starving for presence. We curate lives designed to keep us safe, while our souls ache for a love we are terrified to receive. In the church, we proclaim grace but often operate by law, offering a reasonable faith that demands little and transforms nothing.
Amidst the wreckage of our fractured relationships and polarized culture, the words of Jesus echo with terrifying clarity: Love one another as I have loved you.
To Love At All is not a manual for niceness. It is not a guide to becoming more agreeable. It is a manifesto for the impossible way of Jesus in a world that would rather not.
Drawing from global theology, stories of the persecuted church, and the grit of pastoral ministry, Billy Abwa excavates what cruciform love actually costs. This is an invitation to walk away from the transaction and toward the transformation-to look at the Cross not just as the place where we were saved, but as the pattern for how we must live.
In this searing and hopeful book, you will discover:
The Ache Beneath Everything: Why we sabotage intimacy and how to stop running from the love we were made for.
The Lie of the Reasonable Life: How comfort has become the enemy of our discipleship and why safe Christianity is killing us.
The Practice of Enemy Love: How to absorb violence, forgive the unforgivable, and show up in the ruins when every instinct screams to run.
The Table in the Wound: Rediscovering the Eucharist as a dangerous act of protest against a world built on exclusion.
A Love That Bleeds: Moving beyond sentimental affection to the impossible love that cost Christ everything-and will cost you nothing less.
This book is for the disillusioned who know that the status quo is broken. It is for the brave who are willing to believe that the way of Jesus-the way of enemy-love, forgiveness, and sacrifice-is not just a nice ideal, but the only hope for our survival.
Forget self-help. This is an invitation to die and rise.
Even now. Even here. Even you.
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