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To Love, As I Did Once
Paperback
General FictionLiterary Fiction
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Aug 31 2026
Pages: 66
Weight: 0.19
Height: 0.16 Width: 5.50 Depth: 8.50
Language: English
A young bartender spends one summer serving drinks to the gilded and indifferent at a Hamptons country club. Cal, twenty-two and still deciding who he is, finds himself pulled into the orbit of a mourning old man, a French girl whose beauty and father are their own kind of warning, and a grandfather whose quiet grief says more than the club's gossip ever could. Around them, a community of comfortable people continues living untouched and unbothered.
This is a story about what love costs the people who feel it too completely, and what it costs everyone else to feel so little. It asks whether a single moment can undo a lifetime of devotion, whether wanting someone is the same as being ready to lose them, and whether the people we call fine are the ones who've learned to hide it best.
To Love, As I Did Once is a debut about grief, class, and the particular loneliness of being young in a world that has already decided not to care.
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