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Yet, I am Here!: A Memoir of Trauma, Illness, Betrayal, Poverty, and the Woman Who Refused to Disappear
Paperback
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Jun 16 2026
Pages: 250
Weight: 0.68
Height: 0.62 Width: 6.00 Depth: 9.00
Language: English
I was the little girl locked in a dark basement, trafficked by the very person who was supposed to protect her. I was the child tossed into the broken musical chairs of a foster care system that treated me like an administrative file. I was the prisoner left in a secure psychiatric ward for fourteen days, watching a blind bureaucracy try to erase my name. Yet, I am here.
The world spent five decades trying to execute a single, brutal command loop on Nikol De Riso: make her disappear.
And they FAILED!
From the dark, enclosed walls of childhood captivity to a relentless, sixteen-year siege by a clinical stalker, the machinery of systemic violence, administrative vandalism, and predatory betrayal tried to strip away her assets, isolate her lineage, and reduce her identity to zero.
When aggressive illness struck, followed by the terrifying isolation of a state-sponsored containment behind a county booking desk, the trap seemed completely finalized. The system calculated that she would break, fracture under the pressure, or quietly surrender to the dark geometry of the room.
They ALL catastrophically miscalculated.
Yet, I am Here! is the fierce, unvarnished memoir of a woman who refused to cede a single inch of her internal firewall. It is a raw, pure journey of psychological endurance, documenting how she turned her mind into a silent, unbreakable fortress-logging the names, tracking the timelines, and studying the structural flaws of the very wardens who thought they had her contained. Instead of burning her energy screaming back into the static of her predators, she anchored her feet to the floor and out-calculated the machine that tried to bury her.
Moving from the absolute zero of a homeless baseline to a permanent, secure command center in California alongside her husband, this book traces a chaotic tactical evasion across eleven physical relocations-and the single, unyielding thread of maternal devotion that protected her premature baby boy through the monastic hustle of the asphalt.
This is a testament to the immutable frequency of human sovereignty. It is an uncompromised look back across a landscape of survival, offering profound proof to anyone currently trapped in the dark that no matter what the world strips away from you, it can never claim the sovereign territory of your own mind.
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