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Secondary Drowning
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Biographies GeneralGeneral Parenting
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Jun 7 2026
Pages: 446
Weight: 0.87
Height: 1.11 Width: 5.00 Depth: 8.00
Language: English
SECONDARY DROWNING is a memoir about loneliness, identity, desire, and the hidden costs of living a life divided against itself.
Growing up on the rugged coast of Vancouver Island, Eli Mariner learns early that some parts of himself are easy to share and others are safer left hidden. What begins as childhood curiosity evolves into a lifelong search for connection, belonging, and validation-a search that takes him through first loves, secret relationships, sex work, marriage, fatherhood, friendship, and loss.
As Eli builds a seemingly successful life-a loving wife, three children, a respected career-another life continues beneath the surface. For years he moves between worlds, trying to reconcile competing truths about who he is and what he wants. Along the way he encounters lonely strangers, devoted friends, complicated lovers, and people whose struggles mirror his own in unexpected ways.
At its heart, SECONDARY DROWNING is not a book about sex. It is a book about the human need to be known.
With honesty, vulnerability, humor, and compassion, Mariner explores questions many people carry but few speak aloud:
How much of ourselves can we hide before we lose sight of who we are?
Can love survive uncomfortable truths?
What happens when the life we build and the life we long for refuse to become the same thing?
Spanning more than three decades and multiple continents, SECONDARY DROWNING is an intimate memoir about family, shame, courage, loneliness, and self-acceptance. It is the story of one man's attempt to understand himself before it is too late-and of the people who helped him surface along the way.
For readers of The Velvet Rage, Running with Scissors, and Educated, SECONDARY DROWNING offers an unflinching exploration of identity, secrecy, and the complicated ways we search for connection.
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