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Righteous Rebel: Unlearning Religion, Owning Your Faith
Paperback
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Aug 1 2026
Pages: 214
Weight: 0.64
Height: 0.49 Width: 6.00 Depth: 9.00
Language: English
What happens when the faith you were handed no longer fits the life you are living?
Righteous Rebel is not a tidy theological textbook. It is not a twelve-step programme for spiritual success. It is something rarer: a testimony with theology woven through it, written for every person who has ever felt that their faith was too messy, too questioning, or too complicated to be real faith.
Lola Ayanda grew up in the church. Her father was a Reverend. She knew the Lord's Prayer before she knew her times tables. And yet, at sixteen, living away from her parents in circumstances beyond anyone's control, she found herself asking the question that had always been theoretical and was suddenly urgent: Is any of this real, or have I been singing songs about a God who is not actually there?
What she found in that quiet room changed everything. And twenty years later, she has written the book she wishes someone had handed her then.
Righteous Rebel takes on the questions that church culture often sidesteps: What does it actually mean to be righteous? How do you love people who have genuinely hurt you? Why does the prosperity gospel keep targeting the people who can least afford it? How do you navigate a church community that feeds your service but not your soul? What do you do with the colonial history of Christianity when you are an African or Afro-Caribbean woman and the same faith that formed you was used to justify the humiliation of your people?
Across sixteen chapters and a conclusion, Lola moves through theology, identity, church culture, spiritual warfare, mental health, singleness, relationships, calling, and the particular experience of growing up as a pastor's child, with the honesty of someone who has lived every word she has written. Each chapter opens with a Gospel song and closes with reflective questions designed for individual or group study.
She writes for the woman who knows every Sunday phrase by heart and is still trying to find God beneath them. For the African and Afro-Caribbean believer navigating faith in the diaspora, holding together a cultural inheritance and a colonial theological history that does not always sit neatly side by side. For the sceptic who has not yet found a version of Christianity honest enough to take seriously. For the pastor's child who grew up front row and still managed to feel invisible. For the church-hurt believer who has not given up but does not quite know how to go back.
Righteous Rebel is not asking you to be less complicated. It is not asking you to resolve your doubts before you come. It is asking you to consider that the God you may have rejected is not the God the Bible describes, and that the real thing, stripped of performance, tradition, colonial packaging, and man-made weight, is more alive, more radical, and more than sufficient for everything you are carrying.
This is Volume I of an ongoing series.
For readers of Esau McCaulley, Sarah Jakes Roberts, and Nadia Bolz-Weber
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