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Dirt Merchant: How Systems Build Men They Cannot Hold
Paperback
Publisher Price: $23.99
Publisher: Dirt Merchant Books
Published: Jul 31 2026
Pages: 444
Weight: 1.12
Height: 0.90 Width: 5.50 Depth: 8.50
Language: English
What happens when the trauma doesn't kill you but takes everything that made you human?
In DIRT MERCHANT, Jon Frisch delivers a powerful, unflinching memoir that explores the long road out of trauma-through war, fire, silence, and the wreckage of survival. From childhood sexual abuse by his brother, neighbor boys, a parent, and a priest, to the dissociation of Marine Corps service and the high-performance numbness of smokejumping, Frisch lived inside systems that demanded loyalty at the cost of self.
This is not a story of heroism. It's what happens after the war. After the fire season ends. After silence becomes more dangerous than the truth.
With stripped-down prose and piercing emotional clarity, DIRT MERCHANT offers a rare kind of memoir-part reckoning, part roadmap. Frisch writes for anyone who has lived more numb than alive, who mistook endurance for strength, or who spent years trying to feel something without falling apart.
This book is a mirror for survivors, a challenge to institutions, and a reminder that healing isn't about erasing the past-it's about no longer being erased by it. Today, Frisch is happily married, no longer ashamed of where he's been, and fully alive in a life he never thought possible.
DIRT MERCHANT is a testament to what healing actually looks like-slow, nonlinear, deeply human-and a powerful offering to anyone still finding their way back from the in-between.
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