Diary of Kitty Trevylyan, by the Author of 'The Schonberg-Cotta Family'.

This historic book may have numerous typos and missing text. Purchasers can download a free scanned copy of the original book (without typos) from the publisher. Not indexed. Not illustrated.1865 Excerpt: ... VIII. fT is a trouble, certainly, about Hugh and the parish, and I don't think it helps me at all to try and think it is not. Because I have tried to persuade myself that we could be quite as happy and as useful elsewhere, and have succeeded again and again; yet it always comes back how dear the old home is, and how the people love Master Hugh, and how impossible it is for any one to be to them what he could, or for him to be to others what he is to them. So that I have come to the conclusion that it is best to confess to Hugh and to myself that it is a trouble, and rather a great trouble, and to confess this also to God, and then, with all my heart, to trust myself and mine to Him and to submit. I have also felt much perplexed as to what submission really is, whether we ought really to like all that happens to us, as well as to take it without complaining. But Hugh says submission does not mean that we are to call bitter things sweet, or to try to feel them so, but that we are to take them, however we dislike them, without a murmur, being sure that the bitterest are really good because God sends them. We are to yield up our hearts a living sacrifice to God, he says, with all their joys, and sorrows, and fears, and hopes, just as they are; not dried into insensibility, or frozen from a fountain of life and feeling to an icy conglomeration of principles. He says it is a good test to ask ourselves in any trial, if we could, would we take the choice out of God's hands into our own? And I do find this test comforting, for if God were to say to us this very day, Choose which you think best, I do feel sure both Hugh and I would say from our inmost hearts, Lord, we cannot see what is best. Do Thou choose for us. And He has chosen for us without offering us...