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Why I Still Love My Mommie: A True Story
Paperback
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Dec 9 2025
Pages: 434
Weight: 1.65
Height: 0.88 Width: 7.00 Depth: 10.00
Language: English
A True Story of Pain, Purpose, and a Mother's Eternal Spirit
Why I Still Love My Mommie is the powerful, soul-stirring true story of Shahid Samad Watson benAvraham - a boy abandoned to the cold streets of Newark, shaped in the fire of family trauma, yet lifted by a divine purpose that refused to let him fall.
Born into a family marked by generational curses of addiction, incarceration, instability, and loss, Samad's childhood unfolds through homelessness, hunger, and heartbreak. At only fourteen, he wandered the dangerous streets alone until a chance glimpse through a restaurant window reunited him with his brothers and led him to the YMCA and the Vindicate Society youth program, a place that unknowingly became the soil of his transformation.
This memoir journeys through the pain of a child longing for the one person who shaped his soul: his mother. Though she battled her own demons and was often absent, her wisdom, teachings, and spirit became the foundation of Samad's emotional, moral, and spiritual identity. Her prophetic words, You're different... You hear God... Help people, that's your job, lived inside him long after she disappeared from his daily life. Even in her brokenness, she planted greatness in him.
Throughout the book, readers witness the inner voice that guided Samad from childhood, not imaginary, not delusional, but a divine, protective presence. This spiritual intuition helped him navigate danger, deepen his compassion, and sharpen his sense of purpose. Equally impactful was the surprising inheritance from his father: a Holy Qur'an given to him on 08/20/1978, containing a handwritten note that became a lifelong anchor of identity and truth.
Samad's journey through Central High School in Newark, New Jersey, reveals how a homeless boy, burdened with unimaginable loss, emerged as a protector, mentor, and natural leader among peers. His teachers, community figures, and program directors recognized what trauma could not destroy, his strength, empathy, and destiny.
As he grew into manhood and became a father to eight children, Samad confronted the generational demons that had crushed his family. At the birth of each child, he lifted them toward heaven and vowed to the Most High:
If You protect my children from this curse, I will serve You for the rest of my life. This sacred promise broke the cycle of destruction that claimed his parents and siblings, creating a new legacy of healing, purpose, and divine protection.Why I Still Love My Mommie is not just a memoir it is a testament to resilience, divine guidance, and the unbreakable love between a mother and her son. It shows how a child abandoned by circumstance can rise into a man chosen by destiny, and how a mother's spirit can continue guiding her child long after her presence fades.
This book is for anyone who has endured pain, felt unseen, survived trauma, or carried a longing for a parent whose love was complicated but real. It is a tribute to a mother whose imperfections could not overshadow her wisdom, and to a son who turned his suffering into service.
It is the story of a curse broken, a calling embraced, and a love that never died.
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