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Nine Hours of Not Myself: "A Tale of Grief, Possession, and the Things We Cannot Return"
Paperback
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: Jun 19 2025
Pages: 302
Weight: 0.66
Height: 0.63 Width: 5.00 Depth: 8.00
Language: English
Nine Hours of Not Myself
A Tale of Grief, Possession, and the Things We Cannot Return
Anirudh Mehra, once a respected literature professor and loving father, now lives in silence at the edge of Shimla, shut away from the world after the sudden death of his wife and daughter. Isolated in a crumbling old bungalow, he discovers something he was never meant to: the ability to absorb grief. By touching and consuming objects tied to someone's deepest sorrow-a wedding ring, a child's shoe, a bloodstained letter-he can take their pain away.
At first, he tells himself it's an act of kindness. Quiet. Hidden. But grief is never simple. It lingers. It speaks. And soon, it starts speaking through him.
Word spreads, and strangers begin arriving under the cover of night, offering their pain like offerings at a temple. He takes it in. But the more sorrow he consumes, the more the voices grow-until one day, they stop whispering... and start acting.
For nine hours, Anirudh watches his body move without him, used by the very grief he tried to contain. In that time, he's forced to face what he buried deepest: the truth about his own loss, and the darkness it invited.
Some of these voices are gentle. Others are cruel. And one of them... might not want to leave.
If you could remove someone's suffering-would you take the risk of losing yourself?
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