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Fourth Life: Fraying at the Edges: Shackled by the collar. Freed by the Fall
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Biographies GeneralCatholicismGeneral Christianity
Publisher: Thomas J. Rowen
Published: Apr 3 2026
Pages: 376
Weight: 1.39
Height: 1.19 Width: 5.00 Depth: 8.00
Language: English
Fourth Life: Fraying at the Edges is a raw, intimate memoir of faith, loss, and rediscovery.
For twenty-four years, Father Thomas Rowan lived within the sacred walls of the Catholic Church-six in seminary and eighteen in priesthood. He served at altars across the Midwest, led funerals and weddings, heard confessions whispered in the dark, and carried the weight of others' suffering as his own.
But when the rituals faded and the collar came off, what remained was a man still searching-for grace, for healing, and for a sense of belonging beyond the institution that shaped him.
In this deeply human reflection, Rowan traces his life from small-town childhood through the rigors of seminary, the crises of faith and identity, and the complex beauty of ministry. Along the way, he confronts questions of sexuality, spiritual trauma, and the fraught intersection of holiness and humanity. His journey moves from Midwest parishes to sacred sites in Israel, Egypt, and Rome-and finally into a life of therapeutic work, where he helps others face the same pain he once buried.
Told with humility and piercing honesty, Fourth Life explores what it means to unravel and rebuild, to lose faith and still find the sacred in unexpected places. It is a story for anyone who has loved an institution that broke their heart, and for everyone learning to live with both doubt and grace.
Childhood into calling, priesthood into healing, belief into doubt-and somehow, always grace right alongside hurt.
A memoir of vocation, trauma, and resilience, Fourth Life is not an exposé, but a meditation on truth, faith, and the courage to begin again.
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